12/15/2010

溢れ出すこの気持ちをどうすればいいのだろう。
この寂しさと切なさと暖かさと、行き場のないこの感情の固まりを。
出会えてよかったと思うよ、心の底から。

ふと涙ぐませるその言葉はちゃんと届いていますよ、って
今はただ「ありがとう」の一言を。


幸せになりますように
そしていつまでもずっとずっと、輝いていられますように

終わりではない新たな始まりだって言ってくれたから
この思い出でいつまでも繋がっていられますように、
またどこかで巡り合えますように、
そしてその時はまた、皆で笑っていられますように


まだ経っていないキャンドルに
ただその願いをひとつ。

12/14 Random thoughts.

I WAS going to run this blog in English but just for today-I'm going to write in Japanese! :)
Good practice for next semester too when I'll be taking classes with my peers studying Japanese I guess :D


。。。ということで。
ツイッターにも書いたことだけど、
最近、「奏でる」という単語がとても気に入ってる。

というのは、「時を奏でてる」や「喜びを奏でてる」などなど、
そういう表現がすごく美しいと思われて、
韓国語にも、例えば「（鈴などが）幸せを歌うように」とか、
似てる表現はあるけれど「奏でる」とはまた微妙に違う感じ。


「歌う」という言葉を使っちゃうと主体的に表現してるような感じだけど、
「奏でる」はもっと、わざとではなく、
自然的に表現されている感じ、って言ったら分かるかな？（笑）
風とか、感情とか、空の色とか、いろんなものが混ぜて
「今」というひとつのメロディーになるという発想が
私にとってはとても新鮮で、綺麗で、ちょっとした切なささえ感じてしまう。


という、どうでもいい話。
さっさと勉強しよー

11/8/2010

It's pretty rare for me to say something like this, mostly because I try to make my religious views a part of the "private sphere" as the French would say partially so that I wouldn't make the mistake of accidentally and unfairly discriminating against someone, but...

God does always look after us, provides us with not only the love but also the means to achieve what needs to be done, and reassures us during our difficult times that He is always with us, by us, and has plans for us. I believe that the reason why sometimes when I look around it seems like I'm all by myself is not because I am in fact alone but because He is carrying me on His back and I cannot always see Him clearly for that reason.


So thank You.

Things I'd like to do over winter break.

- Go to Arashi concert in Fukuoka
- Learn Chinese
- Learn to play a Korean instrument
- Learn to play a guitar
- Learn the Korean tea ceremony
- Go skiing
- Go to Busan
- Go to the beach

To be Continued...

B.o.B - Airplanes (Feat. Hayley Williams of Paramore)

Really into this song these days. I especially like the chorus! :)

Shtuff.

1. From my Facebook status today:


OMG...fell a sleep while writing the paper due today at 4, woke up at 2:50. Freaked out for about a minute, then whipped out about 800-900 words in an hour, which is really impressive in my standards since typically when I'm writing essays I barely write a page an hour. I can't guarantee quality, but I'm impressed with myself that I at least finished it. -_-


2.
Games I want to play on PSP:
- Kingdom Hearts Birth by Sleep
- Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core
- Dissidia Final Fantasy (maybe)
- Persona 3 Portable
- Patapon 2
- DJ Max Portable (undecided on which series)
- Project Diva 2


           = I'm screwed. lol


I also kind of want to play Kingdom Hearts Re:Coded.
But PSP first! (for now)

Super Star K2

"Man in the Mirror," by John Park from Super Star K2, originally by Michael Jackson.

I was never exactly a Michael Jackson fan, but I was absolutely amazed by how John Park sang this. I love his voice, gestures, facial expressions, vocal expressions, EVERYTHING about this song. I got goosebumps because it's so well done. I just can't stop myself from listening to this over and over again.
He's just GREAT. AMAZING. I hope he gets his chance to shine because I think he deserves it.

Scuba diving!

I went to the Wellesley Scuba club meeting today. It's basically getting started this year and while I'd love to get more involved in the logistical club business type things, I think I simply have too much on my plate at the moment. Pity. Anyway, it sounds awesome and I think I'm going to do it. I did want to learn to scuba dive since watching that J-drama Summer Snow and hearing from Joy about her underwater adventures near Thailand. We also get PE credit from like 2 days and a half of certificate education, so great! :) I'm actually pretty excited. It's just too bad that none of my really close friends were at the meeting--I mean, there were people I knew and people that I'm kind of close to, but no one that I always hang out with. haha I could make new friends, but I'm also going to try to see if other people are interested.

In other news, I suddenly really really want PSP. It's actually kind of ridiculous how much I want it, because practically when I get time I've been looking at all the used PSP deals on amazon and ebay constantly these couple of days, and even before I go to bed I can't stop myself from thinking about it. >_> I'm going to try to earn money so that I can get one without feeling too guilty about getting it......haha

I think one of the reasons why I really want a PSP right now is because I have so much work to do and I need to take out the stress and what-not on something. And my DS isn't doing it for me because...well, I'm either done with the games I wanted to play or semi sick of the ones I'm in the middle of playing. (Sick of might not be the right term but I'm just not as enthusiastic about it right now. I do play them from time to time though, obviously.)

Well, It's not so much stress. Not at this moment anyway. Yes I have a lot of stuff going on and yes my schedule is kind of filled but I tend to do well with those situations as they force me to be effective; as long as the situation isn't too overwhelming, anyway. In fact I like busy. I think it's just frustration, that I just have so many things to think about at the same time while every single one of them requires significant time to think over it. So there's no quick things that I can just erase off the To-Do list, and I think that makes it really difficult for me.

So many things I need to do and want to do, and expectations I must meet--from family, adults, professors, friends, etc.--. SIGH.

Now, off to read about 250 pages and write a journal about it.
At least it's good that I can't seem to fall asleep early/easily (not sure which) these days. Yesterday I couldn't go to sleep until 5am and even then I had to force myself.... SIGH. again.

Intro.

I thought I wasn't going to make a Blogspot blog, simply because I already have two Naver blogs, a Cyworld, and a Livejournal (though I no longer use this one). But then, I realized that I really need to keep a diary, or just need some place where I can rant about stuff so that I can let go of all this stress, and feelings and thoughts inside me. I already kind of am doing this on Naver, but it's...complicated. I guess.


Anyway, so I opened one, totally out of whim. After all, what's the harm, right?
I didn't know what to name the blog because it was mostly going to be me uploading random pics I take and/or talking about events for my own sake. It doesn't have a theme; if anything, it's just a journal online for me so that I wouldn't have to write everything down by hand. Then I figured it is after all my last year at Wellesley (and that is an incredibly scary thought) and I really should cherish what I'm going through and thinking of at this important stage in my life. And I named the blog after the song by Arashi that I enjoy listening to these days. =D


So here we go. We'll see how this turns out.